I’m realizing the reason why I didn’t even want to talk to my friends about what I was doing in Canada.
I’ve been feeling weird all the time since I had landed here even though I am doing the goddamn thing I had dreamed to do for a long time.
Because I was unable to explain enough why I came here and why I was trying to master English and why I was going to take TESOL courses at school.
I couldn’t specifically explain the reason of them, like “I want to improve my English because I want to do xxx.. in my future.”
I didn’t know what would come after this and what kind of results I would be able to get after finishing this whole experiences being out of Japan.
I couldn’t imagine anything that I would be able to do with being bilingual and discovering some tips about multicultural education.
It made me even a little sad to be unable to explain the purpose of one of the most important journeys in my life.
But now I can say this clearly, any of my potential dreams were not like a thing I could do because of my English or because I could be bilingual.
In terms of language study, my real goal is not only mastering Japanese and English. It is not enough. What I really aim to is to get at least one more, one more language, to be multilingual.
My goal would be way beyond what I can do with mastering English.
Because I know that it would not be enough for becoming an acknowledged human resource in this 21st century right now.
And because I want to stop thinking only about Japan.
I want to be soaked in the other world at least to be willing to change something other than Japanese society and to be truly able to compare Japan and the other.
Then how should I explain the reason why I’m tying to master English right now?
It would be better to say without any hesitation, “because I wanted to keep myself multicultural.”
I don’t want to destroy one of my multicultural parts anymore, which might have remained inside me if I had tried to keep it.
I wanted to be a multicultural person even if I lived in Japan and my mother tongue was Japanese and I was Japanese and my face looked like Japanese.
Because I spent part of my life overseas and I have had an ability to speak another language in addition to Japanese.
This is a very private reason of my own and not about my future job or something related to a contribution to the others. (It may be a tiny contribution to the Japanese society and the world to be one kind of multicultural Japanese person, though.)
I should believe that what I want to do for the other people in the world is something beyond my imagination which I can have right now,
and that is what I need to find out from now without rushing, little by little.
I’ve been thinking my third language would be Korean language for some reason.
Though I haven’t tried to start studying it hard yet, I expect it to be happened sooner or later 🙂
#ThinkBIG #Multilingual
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